it is with great pain that i report the death of my eyebrows. they were savagely butchered yesterday when i carelessly trusted them to a threader other than my guru. it’s my fault. i wasn’t thinking, and now they’re dead because of it. uneven, improperly arched and shockingly thin. i could pretend that i was forced or drunk or even just feeling particularly vulnerable, but i won’t. i cheated on my guru and death ensued. let this be a lesson to us all.
(this is a dramatization and not my actual face.)
there will be a webinar style wake, invitation only, as i’m only accepting close friends and family during this trying time. everyone else, we ask that you keep my regrowth and the regrowth of that non-listening, murderous woman’s future victims in your thoughts and prayers.
(this is a dramatization and not my actual face.)
rest in peace, dear eyebrows. you were rocking the perfectly manicured thickness well before Lilly Collins made it cool. thank you for years of consistent compliments, saving all close-up photos, and keeping my face warm during those nyc winters. you are deeply missed.
“God had to create disco music so I could be born and be successful.” Donna Summer
i loved to love you, baby. rest in peace.
“Everything we do affects other people. One doesn’t have to be doing something that has some huge sweeping change on a lot of people at one time. Every way that we interact with other people, even if it’s like, you’re at the store and buying something, and it’s the way that you interact with the clerk at the store. EVERY action that we take has some motivation of either being selfish or altruistic. All that adds up. I’ve heard the Dalai Lama talk about how it’s important to watch your thoughts. Thoughts are what lead to actions. If you are striving to have more happiness in your life, it helps to guide your mind towards starting to recognize what are selfish motivations and what are constructive motivations. The more you look at that and recognize it, the more that’s going to influence your actions.”
watching this hurt. but, she looks so stunning, and sounds so flawless, i had to share. now hearing her sing these lyrics, they seem to have such a different meaning:
Hearts are often broken
When there are words unspoken
In your soul there’s answers to your prayers
If you’re searching for a place you know
A familiar face, somewhere to go
You should look inside yourself
You’re halfway there
Sometimes you’ll laugh
Sometimes you’ll cry
Life never tells us, the when’s or why’s
wishing you an eternity of sweet exhale…
“The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.”
i got the news while watching Up All Night last night. not feeling right about an immediate tweet, from a blackberry at that, i decided to reflect in the bright of day. i saw this quote on my coach’s facebook wall this morning and thought it was perfect. it reminds me of another great man’s message to me before his passing. and, i don’t know, maybe that has something to do with why i feel so sad. Steve Jobs was a creative and innovative genius, we all know that, but i respected him most for his bravery. he wasn’t afraid to think big and true. he trusted his craziest ideas and poured unwavering conviction into his execution. only someone truly great can do such a thing. that’s what i learned from Steve Jobs. to be brave. to do what i love and love what i do. to trust my own creativity, listen to my heart and never settle. you will be missed, Jobs. by geeks and artists alike. much like another of the greatest ever lived, i’m sure we only got to know the cusp of your genius.
one of my all-time favorite moments of one of my all-time favorite voices.
such a significant and sad loss for music. your phenomenal and soul-wrenching sound will be missed. in such a major way. Amy, may you rest in peace. i hope you’re on a cloud somewhere, singing duets with Donny Hathaway.
i’d like to think these two are somewhere together, giggling. Elizabeth Taylor, may you rest in peace. you were a great beauty, talent and pioneer in the fight against AIDS. thank you for gracing us with your presence.
and, MJ, i hope you’re at absolute peace, smiling from ear to ear, surrounded by love. we miss you.
keep it in the closet. i’m not sure why this has always ranked among my top MJ videos but it has and it always will. maybe it has something to do with how strong and aggressive he seems in this video. yea, i think that’s it. for those few minutes, while i watch this video (and many others, come to think of it) i can see Michael the way i want to. joyful and powerful, doing what he loves, better than anyone else and completely connected. plus that move he does at 3:52 still makes my heart skip a beat, LOVE it!
i tried to create a list of all my favorite MJ videos and moments buuut…that didn’t go so well. it basically turned into a list of just about every video and my corresponding memory. what it showed me is that MJ’s music was and still is a mainstay in the soundtrack of my life. i still remember the Thriller dance routine. Rock with You still melts me and Man in the Mirror will always make me cry instantly.
“The greatest education in the world is watching the masters at work.” -MJ.
(via sharvondaphotog — thanks for sharing.) i hope he knew how loved he was. how loved he still is.
i was obsessed with Smooth Criminal. i recorded it on VHS and watched it over and over trying to figure out how to do that lean. i watched it more than i watched Land Before Time…and i watched that movie a LOT. then, i would watch “The Way You Make Me Feel” and pretend to be that crazy-skinny chick in the video and strut around our apartment like MJ was chasing me. until the breakdown dance number, then i became MJ and my mom would yell at me for humping the floor (he does it in the video but much more age-appropriate for him, hence mom’s uncomfortableness). ah, just some of the many memories centered around Michael Jackson and his music. there are truly so many.
i miss him. i miss his music. i become emotional (possibly in a very unhealthy way) every time i see a video, old interview or hear his music. i know we all go when it’s our time but i sincerely feel like he was one that went too soon. although i do believe, in death he has made a comeback that the public would never have allowed him in life. isn’t that sad?
i believe now, he’s being remembered and honored for his music. the sheer genius he gifted the universe and music world with is something that i hope people honor forever. i hope that wherever he is…maybe moonwalking on a cloud somewhere…he’s smiling down on all of us. he had such a beautiful smile.